I need help please - 08/15/14 09:15 PM
My wife and i have been together for 5 years and married for two. I love her so much. I spent 10 years chasing after her while she was in other relationships before she gave me a chance. we hit it off very quick and I fell deeply in love with her. we had a perfect relationship. we have never had a fight until now. about 6 months ago I went to the bar and got really drunk and acted really stupid. I was with my friends and i wanted to impress them for some stupid reason. they pointed out a girl in the bar and said I bet you cant get her number. so I did. when i left the bar there where a couple of txt messages sent back and fourth between us. It was nothing sexual. when I woke up the next morning sober. I felt like a complete idiot and deleted the txt messages. My wife found out about it. at 1st I lied about it because i was scared of what might happen. she didnt believe me and she told me that it was over. the next day I came clean and told her the whole story. Leaving nothing out. she didnt believe that was all that happened. she got on a plane the next day and went to california to stay with her sister. she was out in california for 2 months. while she was out there we had no communication. just text messages. she came back to florida about 3 months ago and is living with her mother. right down the road from our house. when she first got back she was coming to are house every day to hangout for a little bit. and every once in awhile we would stay the night together. no sex or anything like that. I havnt stayed with her in about 3 weeks, and our communication with each other has gotten worse. Every time we start to talk about what we are going to do she starts to cry and leaves upset. she says that she does not want to lose me but that she doesnt know if she can ever trust me again. I have written her about 30 letters since this happened. Trying to explain to her that I would never cheat on her and that i would do anything for her, and she has not said anything about the letters that I have written. I know what I did was very stupid and a betrayal. I am very remorseful. I need some advice on what to do. I do not want to lose her