W continues to live with OM - what to do? - 01/26/13 12:10 PM
No responses on my thread for three months. Here's the old one:
http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2302796&page=1
I am opening a new thread with a more pointed title in the hope of getting more feedback. Quick summary: I'm 49, wife, too. 3 kids between 7 and 9. A year ago W dropped the "I love you but I am..." bomb. In April she confessed a PA with a highschool flame. W and I have been together for nearly three decades. Her biggest criticisms:
- I do not "touch her soul", OM apparently does. I was curious what she meant by that but she refuses to tell me.
- I am too "brainy", she doesn't feel an emotional connection with me.
- I hadn't finished my education and was a stay-at-home-dad for the kids. Once she said a "houseman" is a loser for her.
In September she moved in a flat with OM and our kids. OM left his wife and two kids. Our house is empty since then. OM hasn't finished any education and earns less in a year than I do in a month.
180s I did:
- In March I moved to my university, 400 miles away. I finished my course with an A and found a job immediately. In the meantime I am very successful and earning above average, though still only half as much as W.
- I used to do little housework. My wife is a perfectionist and always had something to criticize. Now, when I am together with the kids, I am doing all the work myself.
- My relation to my kids is excellent. They tell me they would much rather stay with me in the house than in the flat with OM.
- I am now preparing a move back to the house. Unfortunately my profession involves a lot of travels. Right now I am on the eve of leaving for another stay far abroad.
- Hardly any talk about D with W. I haven't filed, she hasn't filed. She is acting very nicely, wants me to have success, applauds my professional progress, supports my moving back to town etc. There were hardly any arguments. One major exception: about two months ago I told her that the kids prefer to stay with me and that she should take into consideration that once I am back in the house that the kids staying with me may become a permanent situation if I can arrange it with a new job. One of our daughters came into the room and on the question with whom she would rather stay pointed at me immediately. W started sobbing.
Now my question to all readers: am I crazy in continuing with DBing? Do I allow cake-eating by accepting being "friends" for now? As Michelle has written in DR most people around me advocate a divorce. But I still think I am the "better choice", in fact better than ever. The kids are yearning for a reconciliation. But how to do a 180 on her core point of "not reaching her soul"? Probably listening to her carefully is all I can do. - How to increase my physical attractiveness? I have already lost 30 pounds. More plans I have:
- Start driving a car. Due to ecological considerations I have a total driving experience of 5000 km in 30 years. But organizing life with three kids without a car is tedious.
- Take dance lessons. Difficult since my schedule is unpredictable.
- Working out.
That's it for now. Now gotta pack my suitcase for a month on another continent.
http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2302796&page=1
I am opening a new thread with a more pointed title in the hope of getting more feedback. Quick summary: I'm 49, wife, too. 3 kids between 7 and 9. A year ago W dropped the "I love you but I am..." bomb. In April she confessed a PA with a highschool flame. W and I have been together for nearly three decades. Her biggest criticisms:
- I do not "touch her soul", OM apparently does. I was curious what she meant by that but she refuses to tell me.
- I am too "brainy", she doesn't feel an emotional connection with me.
- I hadn't finished my education and was a stay-at-home-dad for the kids. Once she said a "houseman" is a loser for her.
In September she moved in a flat with OM and our kids. OM left his wife and two kids. Our house is empty since then. OM hasn't finished any education and earns less in a year than I do in a month.
180s I did:
- In March I moved to my university, 400 miles away. I finished my course with an A and found a job immediately. In the meantime I am very successful and earning above average, though still only half as much as W.
- I used to do little housework. My wife is a perfectionist and always had something to criticize. Now, when I am together with the kids, I am doing all the work myself.
- My relation to my kids is excellent. They tell me they would much rather stay with me in the house than in the flat with OM.
- I am now preparing a move back to the house. Unfortunately my profession involves a lot of travels. Right now I am on the eve of leaving for another stay far abroad.
- Hardly any talk about D with W. I haven't filed, she hasn't filed. She is acting very nicely, wants me to have success, applauds my professional progress, supports my moving back to town etc. There were hardly any arguments. One major exception: about two months ago I told her that the kids prefer to stay with me and that she should take into consideration that once I am back in the house that the kids staying with me may become a permanent situation if I can arrange it with a new job. One of our daughters came into the room and on the question with whom she would rather stay pointed at me immediately. W started sobbing.
Now my question to all readers: am I crazy in continuing with DBing? Do I allow cake-eating by accepting being "friends" for now? As Michelle has written in DR most people around me advocate a divorce. But I still think I am the "better choice", in fact better than ever. The kids are yearning for a reconciliation. But how to do a 180 on her core point of "not reaching her soul"? Probably listening to her carefully is all I can do. - How to increase my physical attractiveness? I have already lost 30 pounds. More plans I have:
- Start driving a car. Due to ecological considerations I have a total driving experience of 5000 km in 30 years. But organizing life with three kids without a car is tedious.
- Take dance lessons. Difficult since my schedule is unpredictable.
- Working out.
That's it for now. Now gotta pack my suitcase for a month on another continent.