Back from the far away.... - 10/08/12 07:05 PM
Been nearly a couple of years since i posted but thought i would run my situation past you guys and see if you have any advice...
divorce was final in february of 2011. since then there has been minimal contact. we have no kids and the only reasons to see each other have been when random things end up getting sent to her house or situations like that. i have been dating and am currently in an exclusive but not serious relationship (hard to be when i'm still in love with my ex wife.)
my "GAL"ing has gone very well and i have been in a very good job for nearly a year (ironically in the same building where she works... although it is a very large office tower) in addition, i have taken up photography as a hobby and that has been going very well. i am showing my prints at an art show and invited her to come see my show (not go with me) but she declined.
one thing that happened while we were splitting that i should cover real quick... there was one night where she was extremely depressed. crying and saying that if we divorced she would be alone because all of our friends were mostly my friends and they would blame her, etc... i told her that that wasn't true and that people cared about her a lot and that no matter what, no matter what happened with our marriage, i would always be there for her. she replied saying "no you won't!..." then she hesitated and thinking to herself out loud said "but, i don't know why i would want you to be there for me if i'm divorcing you?"
so fast forward to about a month ago... i emailed her to try to get a conversation going. i talked about that conversation and asked something to the affect of whether or not she was avoiding me just to prove that point to herself. she replied fairly unfiltered that she had struggled with that idea since our divorce. she doesn't know how to reconcile that in her mind.
after that conversation i asked her to come see my show and she went dark for a few days... finally she replied cold and distant with "i won't be able to make it but congrats" or something like that.
her reasoning for divorcing me was that i didn't love her, that i loved "my version of her"... i told her that i love her no matter what and that if she has to be on her own then i can accept that.
how do i keep a conversation going with her? i have no exposure to her really. i want her to know that i love her right now... but not in a "i told you so" kind of way. and not with any expectation.
i'm just looking for advice on how i can work towards opening a door that has been closed.
divorce was final in february of 2011. since then there has been minimal contact. we have no kids and the only reasons to see each other have been when random things end up getting sent to her house or situations like that. i have been dating and am currently in an exclusive but not serious relationship (hard to be when i'm still in love with my ex wife.)
my "GAL"ing has gone very well and i have been in a very good job for nearly a year (ironically in the same building where she works... although it is a very large office tower) in addition, i have taken up photography as a hobby and that has been going very well. i am showing my prints at an art show and invited her to come see my show (not go with me) but she declined.
one thing that happened while we were splitting that i should cover real quick... there was one night where she was extremely depressed. crying and saying that if we divorced she would be alone because all of our friends were mostly my friends and they would blame her, etc... i told her that that wasn't true and that people cared about her a lot and that no matter what, no matter what happened with our marriage, i would always be there for her. she replied saying "no you won't!..." then she hesitated and thinking to herself out loud said "but, i don't know why i would want you to be there for me if i'm divorcing you?"
so fast forward to about a month ago... i emailed her to try to get a conversation going. i talked about that conversation and asked something to the affect of whether or not she was avoiding me just to prove that point to herself. she replied fairly unfiltered that she had struggled with that idea since our divorce. she doesn't know how to reconcile that in her mind.
after that conversation i asked her to come see my show and she went dark for a few days... finally she replied cold and distant with "i won't be able to make it but congrats" or something like that.
her reasoning for divorcing me was that i didn't love her, that i loved "my version of her"... i told her that i love her no matter what and that if she has to be on her own then i can accept that.
how do i keep a conversation going with her? i have no exposure to her really. i want her to know that i love her right now... but not in a "i told you so" kind of way. and not with any expectation.
i'm just looking for advice on how i can work towards opening a door that has been closed.