Left Behind Wife - 02/26/12 11:43 AM
Hi everyone! This is a wonderful website and you are all so supportive of each other. I've just ordered Michele's DB book, anything that can help me at this time is worth reading........ Last Sept. I came home from work to an empty house and a note from my husband that he was sorry but we would be better off without him and that he was sorry for the pain and hurt he caused. I don't know where he went, and I am still not sure where he is 6 months later. I cannot begin to explain the distress, the pain and the anguish I experienced these months, and also the betrayal as he was having an affair. I did not hear from him at all for 3 months, and then to wish me a happy birthday as though nothing had happened! Through this time I had been writing to him assuring him of my love and devotion and how we could work through anything..... He ignored every email, and the cartwheels and dancing I did in them returned negative comment when he did decide to answer me. I still don't know why he left, and he has not given a reason for just tossing our marriage.
Recent communications from him have been very open, in relation to his feelings of rejection and worthlessness which he blames on my daughter. It is true that sometimes he felt unimportant and second best to her. (she is 20 and hardly ever at home). She is not his child and we were thrilled that she would have a father figure in her life. His early behaviours when we moved in together were difficult and he often stonewalled me for reasons I still don't know. He said last week that he was never coming home to me and there is no hope for us. He refuses to come to MC with me. I see a counsellor every week and I've really been concentrating on getting myself strong mentally and physically, my life is very full and I am very successful at my work and have lots of great things happening on a daily basis.
I am a RC and really believe every word of the vows I took and I am struggling dreadfully with that. This whole mess seems so stupid and childish to me, and he doesn't seem to be thinking of the consequences of what he has done and those of our futures. Marriages are not throw away relationships, and I don't know what to do. I don't see my husband at all, there is no contact except by email, and his family have sided with him (as they do) so I have no contact with them either. I really want my marriage with my husband, I love him to the core of me and I miss him so much.
Any of your experiences, thoughts, hopes , please share!
Thank you so much for any help, or guidance or ideas
Maryd
Recent communications from him have been very open, in relation to his feelings of rejection and worthlessness which he blames on my daughter. It is true that sometimes he felt unimportant and second best to her. (she is 20 and hardly ever at home). She is not his child and we were thrilled that she would have a father figure in her life. His early behaviours when we moved in together were difficult and he often stonewalled me for reasons I still don't know. He said last week that he was never coming home to me and there is no hope for us. He refuses to come to MC with me. I see a counsellor every week and I've really been concentrating on getting myself strong mentally and physically, my life is very full and I am very successful at my work and have lots of great things happening on a daily basis.
I am a RC and really believe every word of the vows I took and I am struggling dreadfully with that. This whole mess seems so stupid and childish to me, and he doesn't seem to be thinking of the consequences of what he has done and those of our futures. Marriages are not throw away relationships, and I don't know what to do. I don't see my husband at all, there is no contact except by email, and his family have sided with him (as they do) so I have no contact with them either. I really want my marriage with my husband, I love him to the core of me and I miss him so much.
Any of your experiences, thoughts, hopes , please share!
Thank you so much for any help, or guidance or ideas
Maryd