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#2659654 03/04/16 12:52 PM
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So I am over here now!! It is weird, but when I first came to this forum, I was trying to save my marriage like everyone else. I look back now and I think I knew that my marriage couldn't be saved. I don't think I wanted to admit it, but I was not happy in my marriage. I stayed and I tolerated things for my kids. And the fact that I hate drama and wanted none of it.

I was not able to save my marriage but with the help of this forum, I was able to save myself if that makes sense. I admit I was not the perfect husband. I am working hard on my issues. My counselor is helping me work on why I tolerated the intolerable for so long.

I have often thought of coming back here so I could payback to others the help that was given to me. The thing that has kept me from that is my views have changed from where they were before. I believe now that when these situations come around and an affair is involved, a person definitely needs to clean up their end of the street, but no one deserves to be cheated on. Today because of how I have become, if I was in the same situation again, I would have asked her to leave as soon as the cheating started!

Sometimes things come up that bring me back to the feelings I had during that time. I can't tell how much better and at peace I feel not having to deal with that anymore. No wondering, no trying to figure out what is truth and what is lies, no tension, no drama, no feeling like I am not good enough, no guilt trips.

I am on a different journey now. I am learning as I go. I working on me. I am looking forward to what God has in store for me. Sometimes it is scary and lonely, but that passes. Life is GOOD!! I am so thankful today and everyday!! smile


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Wonderful Children
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BD 6/14
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Divorce Final 2/25/16
"It works if you work it!"

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Good Morning Everyone!! So I have decided I would like to stick around and try to be help where I can. I can at least lend support here. I am grateful for this place and the people here.

I am taking my time dealing with my divorce. I think the feeling of sadness I feel is more for my marriage and the good times we had. I am at peace with my divorce, but at the same time this is not how I thought things were going to be. I love my children so much and now I will have to deal with them being gone during Christmas and in the summer. I will have to deal with another man in their lives also.

I just realized why I was feeling a little down and maybe sensitive today. Last year I coached my daughters 3 on 3 basketball team. It could not have been at a better time. It made me feel good inside. Something I love to do! I had alot of fun! The girls did really well! This year most of the girls wanted me to coach again. One of the girls asked someone else to do it and just took over everything. I was looking forward to it again. I am a little disappointed. It might sound silly, but doing things that I like are important right now. It helps me heal and helps me with my GAL things. But I do have plenty of other things to get done. So onward and upward!


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Divorce Final 2/25/16
"It works if you work it!"

Joe46 #2661031 03/09/16 02:14 PM
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Joe welcome here.

This forum does not get as much activity but some of us have
been around the block a few times.

What else do you have to get done.

I am taking a you tube course on behavioral-biology from Stanford right now.
I had started it one but each video is almost 2 hours long so it is a large investment in TIME.

Of course these days my gift is lots of that commodity.


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Thanks Cadet! Yeah I have noticed there is not much action over here. But thought I should post anyway.

Your You Tube thing sounds very time consuming! But interesting. I have been reading mostly. Books about boundaries. Getting ready to start a new one on being a single father.

As for other things, kids keep me very busy! I am looking forward to the nice weather coming and getting back out on the golf course! And also some fishing!


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BD 6/14
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Divorce Final 2/25/16
"It works if you work it!"

Joe46 #2663128 03/16/16 11:29 AM
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Joe,

I'm glad to hear you are doing well. I can totally relate to spring fever-it's 80 here today and I keep wondering why I am not on the beach:)



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Georgiabelle!!!! Oh my gosh!! It is so good to hear from you!! 80!! Man I bet that is nice! Not quite that warm here. Was 68 yesterday. S7 and I had a good time out playing football! Had to take a break from the NCAA Tournament!! Man what a crazy tournament! My bracket is absolutely BUSTED!!!


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Wonderful Children
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BD 6/14
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Divorce Final 2/25/16
"It works if you work it!"

Joe46 #2664842 03/25/16 02:35 AM
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Joe

Linked thoughts from my thread.

Until Monday evening I have added Vanilla as a search idea.

Accounting and physiology are a weird combination especially in Bedford.

It could be that we contact colleagues in common.

Interesting thoughts on anger.

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Freedom is just another word for nothing left to loose.
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So I was thinking of this place and all of you over the weekend and how far I have come. Thought I would stop in and give an update!!

Not a whole lot has changed. My kids just came home from their summer visit with their mom. D13 was not happy!! Too many lies told by her mom. Too much of her summer wasted doing nothing. Too much rubbing her new love life in D13 face. Don't think next year she will be going as long. S8 was fine except he missed his Dad. But his mom pretty much spoiled him. She knows he is young and can be bought. EXW knows D13 knows the truth of what she did and can not be bought.

I am beginning to recover financially. Have a few more bills to catch up on that ExW ignored. But my credit is improving and I like the feeling of having everything paid on time and good credit. I was able to get a couple credit cards to help build my credit faster. It has really paid off. EXW really did a number on my finances!! I could say that I feel sorry for the guy she is with now and what she is going to do to his finances, but I can not tell a lie!!

I spent the summer playing a ton of golf. Working on my social life. Working around the house. Been doing pretty good so far!! smile


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Wonderful Children
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BD 6/14
OM Confirmed
Divorce Final 2/25/16
"It works if you work it!"

Joe46 #2696954 08/15/16 02:26 PM
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Hi Joe!
I can certainly empathize with the changing views since going through this journey. My experience has been the same. I came here when XH filed for divorce in the aftermath of his affairs. I took more than my fair share of blame for his choices, reasoning that problems don't happen in a vacuum and while he made poor choices, I contributed to making him vulnerable to do so. I still feel that way to an extent, and yet, I find myself much less forgiving of those choices now, and am less inclined to want to encourage others to stand with a WW spouse. In my time here, I have met so many others who have remained faithful through much more challenging circumstances, so it's increasingly difficult to excuse such behavior in general. In my case, I ultimately had the option to reconcile, but I never saw real change from XH. He was never sorry, and never took responsibility for his actions. To this day, he paints himself as the victim of our story. I'm not sorry I tried to save my marriage, but I also know it's something I would never do again. I'm not sure that's a bad thing though.

Congrats on the financial progress! It's a great feeling when you start putting the pieces of your life back together.

Do you have big plans for the rest of your summer with the kids?


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Hey annab!! Sounds like you are doing good. I definitely can relate to Ex painting themselves as the victim!! Luckily I have not heard any more of that BS since I told her to only talk to me about the kids and only through text or email.

Yes I am very happy to start getting my finances put back together!! There is so much I have lost and will never get back!! But at least I am not having to deal with the stress of ExW not paying the bills and mysteriously not having any money!! LOL!!

I don't have too many big plans for the rest of the summer. Kids start school this week so our summer is kinda gone! We will still get in some fishing trips and hunting season is coming. Kids also like to golf with me so we will playing as long as the weather holds. How bout you??


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BD 6/14
OM Confirmed
Divorce Final 2/25/16
"It works if you work it!"

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