What direction NOW? pt. 2 - 12/28/18 04:06 PM
First thread
I am grateful I discovered this site...and the fact that so many of you are generous with your words and support. It's really been a game changer. Now I will try to answer the questions from Sandi's last post:
W had shown to inappropriate behavior prior to affair.
W quit job on her own accord. It was a very part time job...yes she has a career working full time elsewhere.
She didn't end the affair because she was caught. It was about 2 months after discovery. She has shown constant shame over herself with this affair. I think she knows ending it was the right thing to do. She's smart enough to see no future with him when she really stops and thinks about it. But her emotions have kept her justifying it. But, even though she says she ended it....she hasn't.
The rule I was referring to is the "no talk about marriage unless she starts it"...that combined with the whole pulling back and not believing what she says/does. As she continues to contact the OM and lie about it...I find it hard to stay quiet and let her get away with it. At what point do I say "ENOUGH LIES"? The longer I continue DBing and be patient...the more it feels like I'm letting her get away with whatever she wants. How do I "call the shots" and remain on the DB track?
Sandi - I truly appreciate your words and honesty. You don't need to step softly with me...I need to hear it and can take it. Your thoughts on the "playing happy family" and being "great actresses" are dead on. I need to always remember that. The more I do read and learn...the more I seem to be detatching from any certain outcome. I catch myself more and more thinking about a positive future without her. I guess thats good? But it does make me sad.
About a month ago after we had attended a couple of MC appts....I told her I had discovered another counselor in town that deals more specifically with affair/infidelity than the one we were seeing. Just last night she asked me to schedule an appt with the new one. Not sure what the takeaway is there...but I feel that MCing was useless until we deal with the affair head on. If a counselor better suited to help with that can help...I'll try.
R2C: I will work on less words and more eye contact. Good advice.
I am grateful I discovered this site...and the fact that so many of you are generous with your words and support. It's really been a game changer. Now I will try to answer the questions from Sandi's last post:
W had shown to inappropriate behavior prior to affair.
W quit job on her own accord. It was a very part time job...yes she has a career working full time elsewhere.
She didn't end the affair because she was caught. It was about 2 months after discovery. She has shown constant shame over herself with this affair. I think she knows ending it was the right thing to do. She's smart enough to see no future with him when she really stops and thinks about it. But her emotions have kept her justifying it. But, even though she says she ended it....she hasn't.
The rule I was referring to is the "no talk about marriage unless she starts it"...that combined with the whole pulling back and not believing what she says/does. As she continues to contact the OM and lie about it...I find it hard to stay quiet and let her get away with it. At what point do I say "ENOUGH LIES"? The longer I continue DBing and be patient...the more it feels like I'm letting her get away with whatever she wants. How do I "call the shots" and remain on the DB track?
Sandi - I truly appreciate your words and honesty. You don't need to step softly with me...I need to hear it and can take it. Your thoughts on the "playing happy family" and being "great actresses" are dead on. I need to always remember that. The more I do read and learn...the more I seem to be detatching from any certain outcome. I catch myself more and more thinking about a positive future without her. I guess thats good? But it does make me sad.
About a month ago after we had attended a couple of MC appts....I told her I had discovered another counselor in town that deals more specifically with affair/infidelity than the one we were seeing. Just last night she asked me to schedule an appt with the new one. Not sure what the takeaway is there...but I feel that MCing was useless until we deal with the affair head on. If a counselor better suited to help with that can help...I'll try.
R2C: I will work on less words and more eye contact. Good advice.