Going Dark to Save My Sanity? - 02/03/15 02:31 AM
Hi all, new here! Bit of background:
Together for 13 years, married for two, 16yo DD and 4yo DD. Husband left 5 months ago after I went off the planet for about a year, found out it was due to my contraceptive pill!! ugh!! I stayed in the family home for 3 months until it got too hard to get grounded, was an emotional basketcase. Moved to my mothers for 6 weeks and in that time he fell "in love" with another woman. Came home just prior to Christmas (he moved out of the family home) for my daughters sake and the OW dumps him a day later with some kind of ultimatum (no idea what it was), it was never physical up until that point. Two days later he came over and we slept together, thought it was the right thing to do because one of the major things was lack of in our marriage due to my contraceptive pill killing my sex drive.They reunited a month ago now.
Since being away I was able to ground myself and get my head into the game, even with OW in the picture I was good until just recently when I have had to purchase new home and start packing up and selling things off, it's really gotten to me. The property belongs to his family so I have to leave. Problem is he keeps coming over every day and seeing us, chats and tells me about his woes or how this is the happiest he has been for a while. I have been fine with that and working with the goal in mind of starting a new relationship with him, but with all the other emotional stuff of selling off my memories, dreams and hopes, moving etc, it's just taking a toll on my emotionally being there for him.I am deathly afraid that I will let him know what I think, and at this point in time, it's not good!! haha
This morning I decided to go dark for a couple of weeks, his turn for having our 4yo DD. Texted him saying don't worry about this Sunday, was going to go out and do something and he was going to look after her, I would rather spend the time with DD, will catch you in a couple of weeks. Was just a subtle way of saying don't come round so to speak?? lol Reply was "ok".
Wondering if this is the right move or not, it's just so hard at the moment coping with all of these emotions to have him here everyday. Guess I am just trying to protect myself at this point so I can get through the difficult times that coming up. Prepared to put that aside though if it means it will damage the cause. Sometimes I just feel as if he is having his cake and eating it too? I am still here for him to talk to and have a laugh with, listen about his day etc.
Everyone's thoughts would be greatly appreciated.
Thanks,
Michelle
Together for 13 years, married for two, 16yo DD and 4yo DD. Husband left 5 months ago after I went off the planet for about a year, found out it was due to my contraceptive pill!! ugh!! I stayed in the family home for 3 months until it got too hard to get grounded, was an emotional basketcase. Moved to my mothers for 6 weeks and in that time he fell "in love" with another woman. Came home just prior to Christmas (he moved out of the family home) for my daughters sake and the OW dumps him a day later with some kind of ultimatum (no idea what it was), it was never physical up until that point. Two days later he came over and we slept together, thought it was the right thing to do because one of the major things was lack of in our marriage due to my contraceptive pill killing my sex drive.They reunited a month ago now.
Since being away I was able to ground myself and get my head into the game, even with OW in the picture I was good until just recently when I have had to purchase new home and start packing up and selling things off, it's really gotten to me. The property belongs to his family so I have to leave. Problem is he keeps coming over every day and seeing us, chats and tells me about his woes or how this is the happiest he has been for a while. I have been fine with that and working with the goal in mind of starting a new relationship with him, but with all the other emotional stuff of selling off my memories, dreams and hopes, moving etc, it's just taking a toll on my emotionally being there for him.I am deathly afraid that I will let him know what I think, and at this point in time, it's not good!! haha
This morning I decided to go dark for a couple of weeks, his turn for having our 4yo DD. Texted him saying don't worry about this Sunday, was going to go out and do something and he was going to look after her, I would rather spend the time with DD, will catch you in a couple of weeks. Was just a subtle way of saying don't come round so to speak?? lol Reply was "ok".
Wondering if this is the right move or not, it's just so hard at the moment coping with all of these emotions to have him here everyday. Guess I am just trying to protect myself at this point so I can get through the difficult times that coming up. Prepared to put that aside though if it means it will damage the cause. Sometimes I just feel as if he is having his cake and eating it too? I am still here for him to talk to and have a laugh with, listen about his day etc.
Everyone's thoughts would be greatly appreciated.
Thanks,
Michelle